Zach and I watched an amazing movie last night, it is Facing the Giants. It is about a football coach at a Christian high school. He has the most rotten luck. they hardly ever win. He and his wife have been trying to have a child of their own for four years with no luck. He finally went tot he doctor, and discovered he had some problem or other that prevented them from having children. And that night after work, he overheard a group of fathers and some people who work at the school, discussing his losing record, and how he needs to be replaced.
That night he finally turned to the Bible, and God. He decided to give his life over to God, and to quit trying to control everything. He tells his team that from now on the purpose of football is not to win, but to praise God. If they win, they will praise God, and if they loose they will still praise God. They will play for fun, put their trust in God, and see what happens. Well, to make the story short, and so I don't completely ruin it for you... After they put their complete trust in God the blessings started to flow. Their lives were all changed.
As I have looked back on the past year and half of my married life I have seen so many blessings. Every time Zach and I decided to trust the Lord, so many wonderful things happened. But we have trust issues. We like the driver's seat a little too much. As soon as we start to see the blessing coming we say, "Thank you Lord, but we can take it from here. Thanks for getting us out of this tough spot." We let Him be a backseat driver, but won't give up the driver's seat. Then after awhile of us driving ourselves down the highway called life we hit another spot on the road full of potholes. After trying to steer through, and crashing into the biggest one on the road, we let the Lord take over again. Watching this movie has made me realize that I need to completely give up the driver's seat. He knows all the back roads, shortcuts, and all the places we need to see, through the valleys of our trials; and he likewise knows the scenic routes up at the peaks of our mountains.
One of my favorite lines of the movie goes something like this, "The Lord tells us, in the Good Book, 360 times to not be afraid." If He is telling us so many times, He must be serious. Fear is a lack of faith, a lack of trust in God. I haven not really liked it much, here in Globe. I have been searching my "road maps" for a way out of here. I need move over to shotgun, and let the Lord do the driving. Let's see where he takes us....